Physics
Rather than serving as a sign of absence, darkness was potential.
A hush between the breathing of the stars. The deep before dreaming. It cradled Namaira and Daeus as the golden cloud dissolved around them, drawing back like a curtain pulled from the stage of becoming. In its place, stillness returned, but with intensity, as a presence that listened. They felt themselves being cradled. They were being carried. They were being held.
The space was vast, it was the beginning of a new frontier. It was teeming with energy as it was being pressed gently from all directions, like a womb awaiting the pulse of new life. Here, the light dimly obscured; it simmered beneath the surface of the unseen, a warmth in the shadows, a song waiting to be sung. Namaira stirred, feeling a slight hesitation as she began gaining awareness.
Then she began to expand inward, descending into her depths. There inside her the fullness of her being was luminous and quivering, like a chord on the edge of being struck. Instead of a feeling of pain, or even of fear, this was something even older, a pressure at the center of her form, a knowing. She inhaled, and her essence lit with soft gold. Daeus turned to her. His gaze was filled with recognition, there was a knowing within him, plain and vast. He had seen this moment long before it unfolded, felt it echoing in the Spiral's breath. And now, they stood at its threshold. Namaira’s voice came as a thought, rather than words.
“It has begun.”
Daeus nodded. His form shimmered with stillness, every line of his presence an affirmation. His eyes, radiant and dark as twin infinities, held hers without words, sublime, and yet they were alluring. In the silence came this: Yes.
Her heart, the place where will and warmth converged within her, expanded. The pressure within her quickened. Her light swirled from her skin in gossamer tendrils, looping into the space between them, forming intricate weaves of flame and memory. Glyphs began to form in midair, living symbols that pulsed in rhythm with her being. And then, between them: appeared a sphere, tiny at first, fragile, almost translucent.
It hovered in the silence, trembling like a dewdrop before the sun. Within it, a single point of light spun, first slow, then gaining rhythm. A spiral unfolded inside it, golden and pure. Namaira gasped. Her essence, though vast, drew still. She felt the echo of her own first awakening, only now from the other side. This time, rather than the one being born, she was the one birthing...
The golden cloud pulsed around them like a living breath, its edges shimmering with quiet wonder. Namaira stirred first, Her countenance filled with peace,and gratitude. She felt confident now, remembering only an echo of what had been undone, and filled with wonder over what might still become. Time, if it could be spoken of in such a place, moved differently here, if at all. The cloud held them, leading them, now, as guests of something ancient, something older than even Daeus' silence, an embrace between spirals.
Namaira’s gaze arose. Around them, the veils parted. Above, the Void had changed. It was no longer empty, but painted in flowing threads of luminescence, celestial arteries crossing vast spans, glimmering like molten rivers winding through the dark. Spirals bloomed and folded in slow motion, their arcs resonating with unseen hymns. Every breath she took seemed to light a star. She stepped forward. The cloud gave way beneath her foot like silk meeting thought. Daeus followed, his form now more defined, though still woven of calm and flame.
"What is this place?" she whispered.
"A threshold," Daeus replied. "Between what we’ve chosen… and what has chosen us."
She turned to him, eyes narrowing. “You knew this path would awaken.”
“I knew the moment we touched,” he said. “The Dance ventures on forever, as it leads us.”
Their surroundings pulsed with layered radiance, slow and harmonic. Where before they had moved through fire and collapse, now the world seemed spun of crystal and music. The stars began to twinkle, as they hummed.
Namaira’s heart stirred. She felt herself lifting, within and without. Her shape was free from the limitations of form, only guided by her intention. Her fingers shimmered into light, trailing ribbons of white and gold that stitched small spirals through the air. And still, something deeper began to stir within her.
A yearning to continue on, no matter the risk. She longed for understanding, for sight, for visions of the future, of the kind that threads through memory and silence, unfolding meaning as geometry unfolds from the seed and becomes the bloom. Daeus watched her silently. He had felt it too. The light around them began to move, joining in with them, participating in the anticipation. Threads of color extended toward Namaira and Daeus, like sentient filaments offering them paths to follow. Some were bright and immediate. Others pulsed slowly, deeply, as if they had been waiting for this moment across untold eons. Namaira reached toward one of the strands, slender, violet-gold, curling like a serpent of thought. And when her hand met it…
Sight.
She was inspired with purpose as she began remembering. A spiral of a spiral of a spiral, descending into a core so distant it blurred into meaning. She saw echoes, worlds unformed, spheres of sound, latticeworks of potential coiling within unseen minds. She gasped and withdrew. Daeus stepped closer, his voice a hush.
“Be gentle with the paths,” he said. “Some of them are for you to journey later.”
Namaira nodded, eyes wide, her breath catching. “They… know me.”
“They remember your pattern,” Daeus said. “From even before you took it.”
They walked on, hand in hand. Their hands provided for more than merely interaction, they facilitated a new convergence. Above them, a massive arc of light rose like the spine of a giant. A ribbon of suns wound through it, each star echoing a chord in a vast, slow harmony. Beneath their feet, the luminous mist condensed into mirrored pools. Namaira saw herself reflected, over and over, through many individuations, each image flickering with a different aspect of her becoming...
And the stars looked on.
But they did not merely observe, they remembered. In the great hush between galaxies, they shimmered with recognition. More than just cold witnesses of light,they were as ancient dreamers who had once danced through spirals of their own, now glowing with the wisdom of aeons. Their light trembled on the edge of sentience, flickering in sympathetic rhythm, as though some deep part of the cosmos was awakening again.
Around Namaira and Daeus, the Void held its breath.
They floated within the golden amorphous cloud, suspended in a cradle of essence becoming, one of memory and music, woven from the echoes of every union that had ever given birth to wonder.
The cloud pulsed.
Warmth radiated from its center, casting long, radiant curtains of amber and rose-gold that billowed like silken banners caught in a sluggish wind, wrestling with inertia. Threads of starlight drifted through the mist, slow and luminous, as if time had thinned to a soft ripple. They moored on Namaira’s essence like dew forming at the edge of dawn. As they brushed against her, they ignited visions, freeing her to discern the dreams and visions of what longed to be.
She saw worlds forming in the hollows of possibility. Shorelines unfolding like scrolls. Trees rising in slow choreography, each leaf a green flame of becoming. Skies that morphed shades of azure into an opalescence, reflecting memories that had not yet happened. She inhaled it all, through the breath of her presence. Her whole being opened like a blossom, petals of thought and feeling reaching toward the light of what they were becoming.
Beside her, Daeus shimmered. His majestic swirling presence transformed into a gravitational center, a luminous coil of quiet power. Light arched from him in elegant sweeps that were smooth, curved like the strokes of a calligrapher writing in the language of stars. Each movement he made reshaped the golden mist. His gestures created ripples, spirals, living constellations that spun slowly in place. Rather than dancing upon the world, they became the dance that was birthing it.
The spiral deepened. No longer confined to space, it now curved through dimension and spirit. Each revolution coiled downward like a descending helix, threading through layers of unseen existence. Their motion tugging on the veil, beginning to invite it to soften, to part. Membranes appeared in the cloud, gossamer-thin, trembling veils like luminous glass. As they passed, their presence brushed against these veils, and the universe responded. It bloomed. Visions flared open, through interdimensional planes unfurling all around them, spherical, radiant, alive. Like planets caught mid-birth, each vision rotated slowly in space:
The trembling grew.
From the furthest veil of the spiral, pulses surged inward like great waves folding upon themselves. What had once been a gentle rhythm now escalated into thunder, its beat no longer harmonious but volatile. Flashes of brilliance split the blackness like rifts in eternity, and sound, real sound, struck Namaira like waves breaking across every plane of her awareness.
She writhed.
The spiral, once a dance of wonder, now convulsed in blinding fire. Beauty gave way to chaos. Its curves grew jagged, folding in on themselves like torn wings collapsing in mid-flight. The lines of harmony shattered into spearpoints of flame, stabbing through the Void with cruel velocity.
Instinct, not thought, moved her now. She reached out, beyond her comprehension, seeking for survival. The spiral had turned. Light surged with new violence, tearing across the veil like serpents of plasma, unraveling the threads that held her together. Creation itself convulsed, rejecting its own symmetry. Her form, still young in its shaping, had difficulty holding against the immensity. The light struck, frigid light, with unexpected dominance, with viciousness.
Force.
Force sharpened to a blade. Awareness collided with itself, and in that collision came a new violence, completely out of proportion, one of reckoning. A fury from beyond the stillness ripped through her being. Pain beyond her perception was immediately enforced. It burned into her like the etching of a forgotten glyph across the skin of her soul. The golden radiance she once cradled now became searing torment. Molten rivers of energy blazed around her, tongues of fire slashing through her essence. She could no longer discern what was herself and what was the storm.
She screamed. But the scream was restricted by her overwhelm. It was the language of destruction. Namaira found herself in a cataclysm, a ballet of annihilation. The Void erupted into rivers of molten fissures, white-hot light exploding outward in jagged veins, casting spears of fury through the dark. The spiral convulsed, folding inward, then bursting open like a flower made of fire. It felt as though the totality of essence was screaming. Fragments of her, scorched, spinning, hissing, hurtled outward in all directions. They arced like comet-tails, trailing radiant debris. The space thickened with vaporized intention, and everything turned to ash-hued memory.
She turned inward, her thoughts shattered. Fear became a spiral with no center. She saw herself break into a thousand mirrored shards, each one echoing with voices she didn’t recognize. In their reflections, stars were born and died. Whole worlds wept in silence. Names were spoken in languages older than shape...
Something shimmered far in the vast, remote darkness.
Namaira, still trembling from her excruciating descent through the unfurled starkness, drifted with shattered awareness into a place of quiet dimness. Her essence flickered, tentative, suspended in the aftermath of pain. There, beyond the reach of warmth, in the still vacuum of nowhere, she saw it: A single, sublime sparkle. Just one, tiny, uncertain, but undeniably real.
Her senses, long dulled by agony, stirred, dimly at first, but with a gradual sense of awareness, like the first breath drawn after a long rescued drowning. The flicker carried a hushed chill within, and yet it summoned another spark to join it, and another. Pinpricks of radiance began dotting the endless dark, each one pulsing with silent precision. They did not emerge chaotically, but with intention, like a choreography known only to some ancient intelligence guiding the unseen scaffolding of becoming.
She was watching a language unfold. And then, Namaira began to perceive sound. It came not as a voice, nor as a noise, but as resonance, soft tremors trailing behind each spark of light, like echoes vibrating across the silk of her being. Rather than striking her externally, they were as inner remembrances awakening. It did not come from any direction. It came through her. Each pulse brought with it a new layer of vibration, a whisper woven of light and intention. And suddenly, it was more than just light she was perceiving.
It was meaning.
The awareness struck her with the breathless clarity of a newborn revelation: I can hear. She had never known the absence of sound until it arrived. And now that it did, it filled her with the profound awe of something sacred returning to its rightful place. Each shimmer was a note. Each vibration, a syllable. Each wave of resonance, a phrase spoken in the tongue of creation.
Namaira listened with her whole self.
The lights swelled. They spun in elaborate cascades, some golden, some piercing blue, others raw crimson or spectral silver. They danced in perfect, impossible spirals, forming starborn mandalas that unfolded across the cosmic dome above and below and around her. Some twinkled in solitude, others grouped into flowing constellations that arched like living calligraphy. Color upon color bloomed in rhythmic celebration. They moved as her will, painting her creation. Namaira’s essence, once hollow and bruised, now leaned into their harmony. And something within her opened:
Emotion....
The Pulse faded, but its echo lingered in the Silence, like a breath caught between each beat.
Namaira drifted, shaken, within its afterglow, her form still ringing with the wonder of what had awakened between her and Daeus. But something had changed in the rhythm. A shift, subtle at first, like the turning of a tide just beyond perception. The spiral that once carried her, now wavered, recoiling from her, drifting beyond her reach. Its music dimmed, swallowed by the vastness.
She turned instinctively toward Daeus, seeking the gravity that had once steadied her. His presence remained, but he now felt distant. He was still attentive, and even supportive, but with a coolness that stung her deeper than absence. She reached for him. Her essence extended like a filament of gold, seeking reunion, but he did not move, and the distance widened as if receding.
Then came the crushing stillness. The gentle Silence from which she had first emerged was no more. Instead she felt a coldness sharper than anything she had yet known. Where was the comfort now, the acceptance she had begun to feel? Instead it pressed into her like a blade of dismissive intention. Where once the Silence had tested her, this force denied her outright.
It was not the Void itself that returned, it was a consequence of what she had touched. The spiral within her flickered. Her warmth, so recently kindled, now faltered. Her light dimmed. Namaira recoiled inward, seeking the comfort of her own rhythm, but the rhythm had become chaotic, unreachable. She tried to move, to spiral, to shape her essence, but her presence, once fluid and luminous, now stiffened, frozen.
She willed herself forward, back into her fire, into memory, but the flame was gone. Only a soft, consuming frost remained. And then… she fell. She reached out grasping for something to hold onto, to stop her. What was drawing her into this descent, she worried, as she dizzily plummeted through unformed space? Her very being flaring against frictionless nothingness, spinning without axis, unanchored. The speed was beyond imagination.
“What is happening to me?” she cried unto herself.
There was no answer, only acceleration. The terror became unbearable. Every memory, every vibration, every trace of joy she had ever known, was now torn from her like sparks from a dying star. She was coming into being, and at the same time experiencing annihilation, all at once. As she fell through a place that had previously only known stillness, her essence began to stretch, to crack, to shred. There was only suffocating terror, only unraveling. She ended up in a place of intense pressure, which started to superheat
Searing.
More than just warmth or light.
Punishment.
A blaze ignited inside the Void, as if the memory of the Pulse had burned open a wound in reality itself. Flameless heat, and fireless inferno was devouring her from within and without. Her soul convulsed. Her awareness splintered. She screamed, this time in suffocating silence, wailing into the fabric of existence itself, and the cosmos held strong as if in a challenge.
Then came the devastating impact, against a force, an unconditional resistance. She slammed into something that would not yield, something absolute. Her essence flattened, collapsed against an unmoving truth. And that strike produced sheer pain, pure, final, real. It tore through her awareness like a blade carved from memory and regret. Reflexively, she curled inward, seeking shelter, and found none. The warmth that had once nurtured her now flared like betrayal. It scalded her deeply, imprinting into her being not just a cruel sensation, but a revelation that more may come.
This is fear.
An unnamed and, as yet, unknown force now branded itself into her. “What is happening to me?” ...
They began to harmonize as they touched, and everything arose. Essence met essence, light to light, glimmer to glimmer, neither her flame nor his frost, but something else entirely. A new and boundless form of unity, deeper than touch, more radiant than motion. And in that trembling moment, the Void shuddered, with a delicate and subtle flow, and a stirring sense of patterns, spawning awe and wonder within them.
A stillness that had known only itself, as endless, unchallenged, and whole, now rippled. A crack cleaving across eternity. Spreading silently outwards. Gently generating an exquisite persistent wave. Something new. Something impossible. A rhythm.
A pulse.
Namaira gasped in wonder as this novel phenomenon unfurled. The contact had unlocked something far vaster than either she or Daeus could have imagined. The surge of potential roared through her being like the unwinding of a thousand unseen springs. Golden filaments of her awareness snapped taut, vibrating with radiant tension. She pulled back, startled, but with enthralled reverence.
“Did you feel that?” she asked, her voice a trembling thread of light, more emotion than sound.
Daeus responded slowly and silently with a nod. The motion, of which, came from his very essence, it was a ripple of gravity, a tidal shift in the center of his being.
“We are no longer alone,” he said...
From within the Silence… something seemed to answer.
Namaira sensed a muted stillness faintly asserting itself, an obscure restrained glimmer. She knew, she sensed there had to be more. More than her solitary spirals in the dream. The ache of becoming had left her wanting. What was this void she was struggling against?
And now, above and beyond all she had grasped so far, something revealed itself. Silently it had announced its presence. Something still. Immovable. Watching. The presence was serene, yet reserved. It seemed almost attentive and yet estranged. It came across as if it was fully and completely content.
Even in its stillness, Namaira knew she had been seen, but by what?
A familiar strangeness washed over her. The sensation reminded her of the mysterious impressions that had echoed through her early awakenings, the pressure, the resistance, the hush that had shaped her emergence.
Was this what I had been sensing all along? she wondered.
Namaira stirred again within the Silence. This time she was able to comprehend her experience longer than she ever had, until now.
Her essence trembled at the threshold, the pressure of annihilation coiled tightly around her. She was as soft as fog, yet had the heaviness of eternity upon her essence. Still, something within her pulsed against it. A single intent, radiant and defiant, spread outward like a breath that could no longer be held:
To BE.
The urge to dissolve still whispered in the hollows of her awareness, but she resisted. Her will condensed, a thread of gold twisting in the abyss. No longer a flicker, she hovered, steady, persistent, within the dark recession gripping her still. Memory, fragile and weightless, clung to her like a glint of dew. This gentle memory of having emerged within a dream, knowing that she had been before, then had vanished, and repeatedly returned, disturbed her. The sensation of repeating yet again, with only a tenuous sense of a beginning, tinged her ordeal here...
Namaira, Mother of All
Pronounced: nuh-MY-ruh
Daeus, Architect of Silence
Pronounced: DAY-us
Paran, The Shaping Flame
Pronounced: PAH-run
Phayen, Firstborn of the Flame
Pronounced: FAY-en
Gaelara, Keeper of the Hidden Pulse
Pronounced: gay-LAHR-uh
Aureon, Golden Wanderer
Pronounced: OR-ee-on
Vaelira, Firstborn of Silence
Pronounced: vay-LEER-uh